I don't often disable comments on a post, and I don't know why I did that one. I've been a bit cryptic lately, and for that I apologise. I don't want to go too far in confiding details that other involved parties would be concerned about, so I will continue to be cryptic. If you're really interested, email me. If you don't know my email address then sorry, I'm not going to tell you.

So. On with the cryptic.

I sent an email to the person that I referred to in my My Life So Far entry. This turned out to be a pretty douchebaggy idea. I now owe that person a personal apology, and I intend to deliver.

Some on my F-list may be aware that right now I am desparately in love with a particular person. Well, that person is right now going through a pretty terrible time of it, and I'm very worried for her. She assures me that she's okay, but I am hoping for regular updates. If you know or suspect who I'm talking about, please don't panic. She's okay. She just needs to work through some stuff.

Well, that may be about as clear as I can get without giving away details that I'm really not comfortable with giving away. Like I said, I put myself into the social marketplace, so it can hardly be said that the ups and downs of interacting with other human beings were unexpected. I tend to take a positive view of life, because really, I'm an optimist at heart.

Life can send you flowers, or it can send you shit. Expecting there to be flowers without shit is, ultimately, unrealistic. There are no flowers without shit. It's worth dealing with some shit in order to appreciate the flowers.

And in my case, right now, the flowers are particularly beautiful and fragrant.

I'm pretty depressed right now, but I'm an optimist. All things are temporary. Hear that, universe? I'm onto you! Fling as much shit as you like, because I know that in the end, there will be flowers. Beautiful, fragrant flowers that make me happy. Because I'm an optimist, dammit! And I'll remain an optimist despite everything you hurl at me. Because if I stop being an optimist...

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I won't stop being an optimist. I can't stop being an optimist. I will remain an optimist, because that's what keeps me going. What keeps me sane. Because I know that this, too, is temporary.

The flowers are very beautiful, and very fragrant. And more than worth the shit it takes to appreciate them.